Blogging?

So like, there's really no purpose for me to blog, since the only other person with this is Jenna, and if by off chance you're reading this, you're the only one XD I'll just bug my friends to sign up I guess...I should be writing in my diary, but typing is slightly more relaxing, and comes with it's own built-in lighting.

I dunno. Bored. Tired. Life is pretty mundane. I always think of 'great dane' when I hear 'mundane.' Ugh, I am ridiculously lame.

Yeah I think I'll aim this towards a more personal use and see what happens...I doubt I'll ever write consistently but then again, I have zero to do. Let's see exactly how honest I can be.

I feel....bleh. I think I miss the attention and the game of boy-chasing, but I don't want to cheat on Allan. It makes me sad that I have these urges, cause that just means it's a total possibility and probably and happening event on the other side. And that's just :/. I dunno, I am such a difficult person. It's weird. I love Allan, and I'm pretty sure that's an in love. But sometimes I don't think I feel like that, and it's scary. I have such double standards. Ew. Yeah.

I need to stop smoking. I've been getting the urge lately to grab a cigarette even when no one's around, and that's just gross. I think I'd rather kill myself than become a habitual smoker.

I think my mom actually feels bad for me, and I dunno if there's a documented time where this ever happened. She offered to go get my car fixed, but I don't want to take her money. I felt bad coming home this evening cause I discovered my dad was away, and that my mom was home all night by herself...I hate battling myself.

And now I'm tired, and I don't think I have anything else to say...